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Wednesday, July 06, 2005

"Squeak!"

My son Chris is now in his thirties. He’s done well in his profession, and that pleases me very much, especially as it is a vital service (accident and emergency surgery).

When he was about fifteen, or perhaps younger, as we were together in the kitchen one day I suddenly became aware he was no longer a child. I said to him “It seems you are coming to the end of your childhood, Chris.” He looked at me. I went on,“I have so much enjoyed being with you while you have been a child”. I may have said more, to let him know how appreciative I was of his company all those years.

So last night, not to leave it too late, while I was lying down with Claude after putting him to bed, I told him what I had said to Chris, and then I said to him, “My little man – little mouse, I mean” – (he likes me to call him a mouse due to his recent love affair with a captive wild mouse, now on the run again), “I so much appreciate living with you and having your company.”

His face lit up with a glow of pleasure. “Squeak!”, he said.

12 comments:

  1. precious...*hugs* thank you for sharing that bit with us :)

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  2. This made me smile (and almost cry, too!). My daughter is fast-approaching that age. She's taller than me, but I still call her my "baby girl"... she humours me. *l*

    orchidea

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  3. You're a good man, Malc. Your children are lucky to have you as their dad. :-)

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  4. Thank you all for your lovely comments.

    Orchidea, what age is it your daughter is fast approaching - nine, or fifteen? I think it must be fifteen as she is taller than you.

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  5. Now that is just so beautiful. Kids at that age are irrisistable - old enough to get the finer points of a joke and have meaningful conversations with, yet still wrapped in that multicolored, wierd and fascinating blanket of pure childhood.

    Gotta love it! (I have a son aged 7, so I know the drill)

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  6. Thank you for the sweet comments! Your input is greatly appreciated! I like your blog too! And I agree with you that we all can learn from eachother.. young or old!

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  7. Also...., I noticed that somewhere in your blog you posted that your son died. My 15 year old sister died an accidental death very recently also. Seems it's a small world, and others have pain just like me. just thought I'd let ya know that I share your pain

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  8. Yes, Malcolm - she's closer to fifteen than nine. :-)

    orchidea

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  9. Yeah, my sister died accidently. She was at a friends house, and they decided to go to a party, and my sister drank too much alcohol. SHe had never drank that much hard stuff before. She went back to her friend's house and died in her sleep. We were very close, and I'll always miss her a ton. She has inpspired me to dream big! Life is too short, and now I know it.

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  10. Lucky, I never realised alcohol could kill like that. Anyway, Lucky, she inspired you to dream big, and she couldn't have inspired a more deserving person.

    My wife read your blog. "A strong woman", she commented.

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