Sorry for not explaining my absence

Saffy, Sue - and other readers, I do appreciate your concern.  Yes I'm fine.  Just suddenly, blogging became empty, meaningless.  I am not a consistent person, my life is full of U-turns!  I'll probably get back to it some time soon.  I haven't been reading any blogs either.  Spending much less time on my computer and more on everyday stuff like mending things, reading books, making jam.  Trying to understand the nature of reality: it appears certain that there is no reality "out there", it's all within us; but how do we alter our beliefs to accommodate this apparent fact?  Otherwise it is just a useless piece of book-knowledge.  We have to be convinced in our hearts that that is the way things are.